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Stories from the table

11/26/2019

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My maternal grandmother as a young woman
​The table seemed to swallow up the room. It’s huge oak legs, square and solid like my grandmother’s temperament. I sat there on that distasteful day, the day my brother was born, feeling alone and abandoned. A new child in the family was bad enough but to be left alone with my grandmother was my worst nightmare.
 
I was scared of her; this tall, aristocratic woman who believed children should be seen and not heard. This day she sat in her usual carver chair at the head of that solid oak table, carving chunks of cheese with a fierce looking cheese knife and layering it lavishly onto fresh white buttered bread.
 
She ignored me as if I’d forgotten to come.
 
My five-year-old heart beat fast as I kept my eyes focused on my vegemite sandwich. It was the longest lunch I can remember. I hated the silence almost as much as I hated the rose covered cheese dish with its square china lid that seemed to be far more endearing to my grandmother at that moment than I did.
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My mother with her parents
It wasn’t a generous table, just as my grandmother wasn’t a generous person. In some strange way, the table was a ‘portrait’ of her soul. Meals around that table were formal, cold and proper. I never tasted home cooking there or anything that expressed delight, but then I never saw joy in my grandmother’s eyes, only disapproval and judgment.
 
She didn’t fit the picture of a grandmother that I held in my imaginative mind, warm, cuddly and full of fun. She came from British stock and the story goes that somewhere in her lineage was a duke or an earl. It seems to make sense as her table was always set with the best china, stiffly starched serviettes and silver serviette rings. She wouldn’t have it any other way.
 
The table was the centrepiece of the formal dining room of her very grand house. Everything was large including the dining chairs. My feet dangled helplessly high above the floor and not much more than my nose peaked above the tabletop. It was not a table designed for children but then I doubt my grandmother was designed for them either. ​
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My paternal grandmother with her family - my father on the right
My paternal grandmother’s table on the other hand was just as big but not nearly as grand. It was a scrubbed pine table she’d brought with her from South Wales when the family emigrated as 10-pound Poms. It sat on an enclosed back verandah that overlooked a huge lemon tree that seemed always to be laden with fruit.
 
It was a modest home but my memories of meals around that table are filled with warmth and fun. My grandmother was an exceptional cook. I still remember her apple and blackcurrant pies and the way she cooked fish to perfection. Her Christmas pudding was a rich, dark, moist, dense slice full of joy, sprinkled lavishly throughout with threepences and topped with custard made the way only a Welsh woman can. Somehow I always had room for an extra slice of pudding in the hunt for yet another threepence.
 
She made baking-dish sized cakes in her postage-stamp sized kitchen; in fact I can’t imagine how she turned out such a volume of food from such a small space. Her table groaned with food, there was abundance and more to spare.
 
And while good food hangs in my memory whenever I think of her, it is the warmth and joy that flourished whenever we shared a meal around that table that I remember best. She was a woman who had been tried by life.
 
She spent her working life ‘in service’, brought up four of her siblings when her father was left alone, and endured the hardship of life on the coalfields.  She lost 2 daughters, one at 10 days and the other at 10 months and as if that wasn’t enough, she lost a son in WW11.
 
I sensed in her a sadness that she had never quite overcome. Yet, unlike my maternal grandmother, she still gave of herself abundantly in the generosity of her table. She wasn’t given to frills and flounces and her table held no fancy cheese dishes, starched serviettes or silver serviette rings but children were welcome and memories were made.
 
Somehow the simplicity of that scrubbed pine table filled with home cooking, mirrored the image of this five-foot-nothing, unassuming woman from the Welsh valleys who had experienced life in all its rawness and yet continued to give to those who met around her table.
 
Two women from very different ends of the spectrum, mirrored in their tables like snapshots in my album of memories.
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My paternal grandparents with me
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Bruny Island ponderings

11/19/2019

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Albino wallaby on Bruny Island - rather timid and not keen for me to get too close but quite gorgeous.
Cold nights, log fires, rainforest vistas, bay walks and farm life were just the recipe for the refreshment and reflection I needed. My Writer in Residency on Bruny Island was a great experience, my hosts were warm and caring and it was good to have the space to wander and ponder on nature and on life.
 
I began pondering on the things that have made me the person I am today. Of course the list is endless and none of us can know all the circumstances and people who have contributed to who we’ve become or the ways our perspectives and values have evolved. But as I look back over my life, I realise that so much of my thinking has been shaped around tables.
 
Way back before takeaway was a thing and standing around a barbecue became fashionable, we sat around a table and connected. For many of us it was the centre of the home, the place memories were made, wisdom shared, history learned and young minds came alive to possibilities. 
 
I remember soaking up my father and grandfather’s stories like a sponge. They were stories that have had a significant impact on my life, stories of courage, tenacity and exploring the unknown, on the edge of certainty. I could never get enough of their stories.
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My residency was spent in a beautiful rainforest setting, tranquil and soul restoring
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Adventure Bay
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Bruny Island, a island of diversity.
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We were wired for them; stories.
 
They are an integral part of our childhood and as adults we still crave them. We find them in  books, movies, TV series and even catching up with a friend over coffee or lunch and the inevitable question, “How are you, what’s been happening?” We want to know the next chapter in their story and so often its across a table that we share our heart.
 
And consciously or unconsciously we write them every day, fresh chapters in the book of life.
 
These days we write different chapters around different tables and in the process something important is lost. We are distracted by busyness and technology or eating takeaway on the run and it seems we’ve lost the art of table talk, good solid conversations about things that matter. And maybe we’ve lost the art of listening too. Maybe technology has retrained our attention span but I encounter less and less rich, thought provoking conversations and a dearth of soul-to-soul connections.
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The wildlife was a constant joy
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I've been trying to define the table. The dictionary tells me that it is a piece of furniture, but I suspect it’s so much more.
 
As I’ve reflected on the power of the table, I’ve decided to share a series called Stories from the Table over the coming weeks that I hope will inspire you to think so too. I want to invite you to see your table with fresh eyes and imagine all that it can be.

And here's a question for you to ponder in the meantime. What does your table say about you?
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    ​I'm a mother and grandmother who loves  discovering beauty in unexpected places.

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